Sunday, August 31, 2008

Avocado green tea boba- who knew?

Quote of the night award goes to Dustin (of the Erin'n'Dustin duo).

 "Wow, look at all my if's, me's, to's, and it's!"

Now if we could jut get the rest of the gang up from Arizona, I'm sure we could spend all night drinking boba, laughing, and playing Set, Scrabble, and Bananagrams. 

It was so great to see you guys :)

And yours?

We all have our little idiosyncrasies. For example, there's the very passionate debate about whether the toilet roll gets put in upside down or rightside up.

Me? I brush my lower teeth before the uppers, always left to right. 

Saturday, August 30, 2008

Another tentative step into technology

As you astute readers may have noticed, I figured out how to schedule posts for the future! It's kind of fun :) Five o'clock AM PDT a good time for everybody?

So goodbye post dumps and hello predictability! Maybe.

Friday, August 29, 2008

It was a hard one

The beginning of my sophomore year at Culver, there was a choir teacher changeover. The previous director had been lax and well-loved by the students. The new director was, well, more stern and prickly. On the first evening, we were going over the usual expectations and requirements. The beloved "excuse bucket," usually filled with acorns from students who had wandered in late, was to become something to take seriously. On the ever-growing stack of papers spelling out these sorts of things, I unthinkingly scribbled a note to my sister. I wrote, "what a power hungry freak!" Yeah, I'm not so proud of that one. In my defense, I'll feebly state that I was fourteen and angry.

Anyway, I later discovered that the new director had gone through and cleaned out our folders, something the previous director had never done. The note briefly occurred to me, but I dismissed the thought because who would actually bother to reread every single page of all that! You see where this is going? Several weeks later as I was leaving fencing practice at the gym, I ran into him outside. For the life of me I don't know what we spoke about. All I remember is his smile and parting words, "Oh, and I am not a power hungry freak."

I was mortified. I was burning red and it took all I had not to run back to the dorm. Dee sympathized with me, but it took weeks to get up the courage to relate the incident to my mom. I knew I had no one to blame but myself. Truthfully, he had walked into a tough position and I felt a little sorry for him, sternness, prickliness, and all.

Lesson learned (in mom's words): never write down anything you don't want the world to see.

Thursday, August 28, 2008

A new day

When the answers aren't there, a friend's shoulder to have a complete meltdown on is second best.

Thanks.

Happy belated bloggiversary to me

As of August 10th, I've been doing this for three years. Huh.

A whole lot has happened in three years.

Wednesday, August 27, 2008

Still struggling

A friend helped me word it:

Why don't I have any questions? Why do I just feel hurt and angry?

I don't think any answer would suffice, let alone justify, though. And I'm not ok with questions.

I need to know I have what it takes. I need to know it'll be ok. For all of us.

Finish that thought

Overheard biking down the BG Trail this afternoon:

"I know she's my daughter, but she still..."

Wonder what the rest was.

Shame can't survive when empathy is present

What does that mean for you?

Tuesday, August 26, 2008